Sick again...

Sorry Michelle, once again my body and my life has taken over so I was unable to write. I have a systemic infection that has been sapping me of energy for over a year. The good news is that I think I finally found the cure, which unfortunately means avoiding delicious sugary deserts! I promise that I will get back to you! Aside from my own health, poor little Kaylee got sick and my dog Sadie needs to get surgery. Through all this, I still remember you are my sister and think about how you are doing in your own world. I wonder what challenges you might be facing that have caused you to be filled with anger at times. What have you faced since you've become an adult? I know of a few, but I don't know the intricacies. I heard that you were seeing a therapist. I hope that it has helped you. Believe me, when you face serious health issues, have children and dog problems, you definitely need all of the clarity and all the health that you can grasp to continue marching forward. This sickness in me has caused a lot of tears but I know I will be ok because I have a strong support system through my husband, my daughter, my best friend and mom/dad. I always have someone who can listen when I just can't seem to put the pieces together anymore. Just the other day I had a client of mine ask if she could pray with me. Now I'm not a huge religious freak by any nature, but this was something I will never forget. She prayed for my body to heal and I cried. I cried because what she did was so loving. She took time to pause and think about me. Someone I barely know was filled with love for me at that moment. I sure hope the moments that I take to think of you and how you are doing can somehow reach you. You've shut me out but I have so much love that I can provide you if you were willing to listen and work through understanding things with me. We both had a time in our lives where we shared the same turmoil. I'm sure there is a way we could battle to help one another together instead of avoiding a painfully uncomfortable face to face conversation. I'm sorry that I don't know how to reach you Michelle. I love you.