Big Deal. Big Life. Big LOVE.

I'm so happy and blessed to be writing this particular post.

My sister ended up having a preterm baby while on a business trip in Chicago (I know...right?)

Anyways...the baby was so tiny but she was a lethal dose of medicine for my sister and for me.

I set on a mission to help her raise money to take the finacial burden of NCIU and all the hotel stays off of her.  (Why would I do that when she was so mean to me?  Because I forgive and move on and I help myself and hopefully others grow....that's why.)

When facing a difficult decision and I'm totally indecisive about something...this is what I ask myself: "What would LOVE do?  or What is the most LOVING thing I can do in this situation?"

Then I do it.   I don't freakin' ask a gazillion people.  I follow my heart.

My heart told me to help my sister even though she had hurt me.  It was weird and akward but I knew what I was doing was out of love and I just kept hanging on to fact that it will prevail.  (I just choose to believe nothing less than that....LOVE is POWERFUL)

So there I was raising over $6000 for my sister and on my flight to Chicago (scared that something would happen...the plan would disappear...hijacking...etc...), and I realized that I loved the adventure.
No matter what happened, I knew I was doing a really good thing and that I could die happy that day if something happened.

I showed up and saw that beautiful little preterm baby, with tubes and wires all attached, and took photographs and pumped milk with my sister (I was breastfeeding my 6 month old and has left her at home in Pittsburgh so I had to pump).

There's some real female bonding.

My sister is young, but she is a beautiful soul and sometimes I see myself in her and she in me.  We both came to realize that we are incredibly similar (even in how we talk!)  and that perhaps we did influence and love one another after all.  

Who cares if it wasn't perfect!  Perfect is just an ideal in our heads.  LOVE is unique and doesn't follow rules.  We made our own story by living it and loving the moment that we were given by her sweet little early surprise.


Here's a little photo of the gem that helped heal wounds....(while she was healing to join us in the world)

Welcome to the World you little Angel.  Your wings are beautiful.